술 마시고 적은 일기
너를 잊기 위해 너를 완전하게 기억해야 한다.
너의 눈코입은 물론이고 너의 말투와 옷차림, 나를 사로 잡았던 너의 모든것을 마지막으로 생각하고 깊은 장롱 속에 놓기로 결심했다.
더이상 너를 기다리지 않겠다.
더이상 너의 전화를 기다리지도, 문앞에 너의 모습도 상상하지 않겠다.
너의 얼굴이 떠오르지 않을때 까지..
나는 지금 취했다. 그래서인지 용기가 어마어마 하다.
너 따위 사람은 지금 나를 흔들수 없다
to you
I wish I had the right words to make you change your mind, for you to desire me the way you did when we first met. I know nothing I do will ever take me back there because the you that existed in that moment was someone in search of something to take the edge away, not someone who actually desired me as i am. It almost just kills me to think that it was just so easy for you to take what you want, say what you want, and do what you want without feeling any sort of way, because it was never personal for you. You never loved me the way you said you did. The worst thing you did was telling me you love me, when you never had the intention to ever do so. And the worst part of that was that I was so ready to believe you when I had every sign telling me not to believe you. I feel so lost, and the fact that I feel so lost because of you makes me feel so lost. I don't know what to think about if its not you, and i don't know what to drink if its not to stop thinking about you. F...
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